and it makes me want to scream, both out of plain joy and out of pure misery. one second I'm six feet under the stars and I've got him in my eyes and the next I'm down in the dumps and I'm hurting because nothing's set in stone

I swear I've never been more into anyone before this. and it sucks but it's the best feeling in the world at the same time, I don't know how to do this.

I'm scared, I wanna have faith but I really am very scared, because I don't know what to expect

it is so freaking hard to do this. ):