46 so she said what's the problem, baby

what's the problem, out of nowhere baby I'm in love, LOVE :)

hahaha. those are song lyrics btw, in case you're the noobest noob in the world.

you know I never ever wanted to be one of those girls who are so damn oblivious to a guy's feelings for her when it's quite obvious to third parties. I mean, if you think about it, it's really stupid. how impossibly thick-headed could you be not to notice such a thing..

but now that I'm... sufficiently enlightened, I realize it's got a lot to do with how you perceive yourself. sigh. go figure. of course if you don't see yourself as someone that's got a lot to offer, you naturally won't even notice such things. that's the probably the reason why you would be thick-headed enough not to notice in the first place.

and it's not something that you can help either. I mean nobody can be expected to be suspicious of every guy they meet right..

I don't know. I feel like I'm just making excuses. but... argh. I'm quite confused now. really confused, in fact. bewildered. restless, what have you...

dammit, man. I really did not want to be in this situation. how the frick did it all happen so fast. ):

okay in other news. (I'm tired of whining about myself)

I watched shopaholic again today! and I cried again! at the same part of the movie that I cried the last time I watched it. and kris, polly, chermaine, who've not seen the movie before this, didn't cry at all. hahaha I'm some senstitive piece of crap, man, hahahaha. I still can't believe I cried during a chick flick. everyone else seems to think it's overrated -.-

(no, I'm not actually that much of a delicate being. I just feel like I can identify with rebecca bloomwood, especially the part when she feels like she's lost everyone's faith in her.hah.)

lol but I still love the movie no matter what. it's sort of appalling in the way pride and prejudice is appalling upon first glance, because it's so damn superficial (well it seems like it) but it's actually a pretty humourous satire of society.

and again, IN OTHER NEWS! (haha using that phrase is really getting very irritating, but it's still fun)

got econs, and hist back. LIT MATH GP to go! I'm most anxious for mathhhhhh. I did too much math I think, I mean at the expense of my study time for all the other subjects, especially econs and lit. :/ so I'm gonna wet myself if I don't get a B at least, I mean I worked so hard and I got such a shit mark for seahist because I didn't study for it because I was so kancheong (don't know how to spell) about math and it BETTER FREAKING PAY OFFF!!!

I will really cry if it doesn't. sucks.

well so far. econs was horrible. but I maintainted by grade. though that's not what I was aiming for in the first place, because my previous grade sucked. haha. go figure.

and seahist was horrible as well. I kinda expected it, because I just bullshited, didn't know what the heck I was writing about, I got a borderline pass. -.- at least ihist was wayyyyyy wayyyyy better, I don't care what Mr I Shop At Zara says. so hopefully it will balance out. hopefully. really really hopefully.

I'm quite sad about screwing up seahist, because I'm supposed to be good at that. I know I didn't study enough because of math, but I still didn't expect myself to be that bad. ohwell. at least it's a wakeup call, I can work harder for ct2. for once I'm going to try to meet Ms Move Your Feminine Fingers' expectations of me. I know they're quite high. haha. -.-

moving on. (eh it's quite fun to give people nicknames like Mr___ and Ms___. though it sort of makes them sound like Mr Men and Little Miss characters gone wrong. hahaha)

I went to starbucks again today! haha I swear I have to stop being such a dildo, I only go there because I want to see Mr Friendly Cute Starbucks Guy. (insert slightly repulsive fangirl-y sentence....he's so cute la pls)

he said goodbye to me and like a right jackass, I walked right past without even saying anything, just throwing back a measly smile. ugh. I disgust myself.

alright I'm off. :) see you guys.