43 this is me, being desperate :)

(disclaimer: hey don't judge. I'm really not this desperate

today was such a Shit Day. but I'm not gonna complain about here, because you won't want to listen (even though I know you all harbour secret desires to listen to every single aspect of my horribly interesting life :P) and because

THERE'S NO POINT MOPING OVER SPILT MILK. I refuse to depress myself any further than I already have.

today I spent an hour at starbucks before going home for tuition, just sitting there pretending not to be secretly admiring the Friendly Cute Starbucks Barista. who remains anonymous. hey, he looked extra delicious today. but not as delicious as my CARAMEL FRAPPE :)

anyhow, blah blah he's so damn nice, and so damn hot. I wish I had the nerve to say something else to him besides "can I have a caramel frappe please?" but no, I don't have the courage to do that.

I sat there stoning pretending to be vaguely interested in Seventeen magazine. which is realllllly not something that I do. if you know me well enough, you'd know I don't care much for glossy mags and looking up Hot New Summer Looks and what not, haha.

well at least he's damn friendly. and so oblivious to my admiration. he just throws smiles at me when he looks up from the blender or something, and sees me staring like I've never seen a guy before. so damn friendly. I feel like ruffling his hair! hahaha okay maybe not, don't think any guy likes that right... -.-

okay enough about that guy. :)

today in the school canteen, a very weird thing happened. some j1 did something very weird to me.

I was looking for a seat along with my friends, during the lunch block before seahist tutorial, and we picked a bench which was empty except for this j1 guy and his friend. and then the j1 guy (Mr. Weird) went "this one ah?" he was practically screaming into his friend's ear, and I was thinking "haiyah, why j1s so noisyyyy."

and then I noticed Mr. Weird pointing, like with his index finger, almost like I did something wrong to offend him, straight at me. I thought I was being delusional, and I was about to turn to see if he was talking to anyone behind me, but there wasn't anyone who was even paying attention to him. then he turned away from his friend and gave me this Look. the I'm Observing You look.

I think I must've looked really surprised, cuz he looked quite amused.

actually come to think of it right, a lot of Weird Freaky Happenings have been happening to me. spice up my life ah?? hahaha yeah right. more like make my thoughts a tangly mess....

I realize that I've ended up telling you guys about my life anyways. -.- so yea, this is about as interesting as it gets. which means it's pretty much horridly boring.

I should stop trying to smooth out my thoughts now, and go mess them up again by doing loci.

LOUSY LOCI LAOSAI PANGSAI

haha I don't know why I said that. o.o

bye guys.