48 bmtc.

geeez.

if you have a boyfriend, or a girlfriend, then for goodness' sake stick with him/her. nobody worth loving is ever gonna find you amazing enough if you can't even stay loyal to your love.

and if you want to fall in love, you don't just go through men/women like you go through underwear (all sexual innuendo is hereby fully acknowledged), and claim to be so much in love with a new boy/girl every few months or so, that's bullshit.

that's just being in love with love, not being in love with a person. you fall in love with a person, you might as well be ready to give every single ounce of your soul, everything you've got, and I mean everything, to that person.

it's not just for fun.

I know it's weird, coming from me, seeing how I was last year. but I was 16, now 17. one year is enough, trust me, to put perspective into alot of things.. I am disgusted by the number of people i claimed to really like last year, but hey at least I learnt something out of it. don't really regret it, in that sense. although it is still mortifyingly embarrassing..

anyways.

had the BMTC learning journey thingum today. it was quite good lah actually. okay maybe not good, I refuse to call it good since I still don't see what it has to do with me, but it was... an eye-opening experience.

oh yeah. BMTC = basic military trg ctr. at pulau tekong.

basically quite fun, hearing the guide's army stories. I'm tempted to go QUAIL?! every time someone says 'bird' now. oh and use as many 'ho lan' references as possible hahaha.

so to cut the story short right,

1. everyone reacted the same way whenever I told them I'm going pulau tekong for learning journey: "walao you're a girl, you go there do what, stare at hot guys ah?"

2. there weren't as many hot guys there lah actually. in fact, not a single one. okay maybe chermaine will violently object to that... haha

3. I found out that my ex is insanely inhumanly fit. he's a freaking fitness specialist. that's like being a pe teacher for people in NS. omg?!

4. shooting a gun in a simulated environment in NS is nothing like shooting a gun in a simulated environment in Time Crisis 4 at ezone.

5. WHY IS MY EX SO INSANELY FIT, WHEN I AM CAN'T EVEN RUN 2.4? it bothers me. I don't know why anything ever happened. -.-

anyways. life is so weird.

went to eat at popeyes at t3 after the whole thing. I was so damn tired. I love popeyes food, it's just that it's SOOOOOOO much. or maybe it's just that I got the chicken wing and the chicken's 36C-cup boobs, oops I mean chicken breast.

but it's nice. it's actually filling. lol

anyways (third time I've used that term, I realize, lol) I was so damn tired in the train on the way home, I just sat down right there in the middle of the train, when everyone else was standing and being squished together like sardines, at the thing which joins each carriage to the other. the metal floor part.

I didn't care about anything else, just fell asleep right there. hahhaha. looking very weird, I suppose, but oh well.

now I'm going to sleep bye :)