47 jellyfish boy.

optimism. you either curse it or embrace it.

I realize I have this tendency to be slightly (exasperatingly, actually) optimistic. it's automatic to me. when something screws up, I just naturally look on the bright side of things, and I make the bright side really shine, at least to myself, even if the "bright side" is actually lacking in sheen.

(that's provided things don't screw up too badly. lol. so far the only time things screwed up that badly was once in my entire life. thank God. :) )

I always have this picture in my mind of how things "should" be and I always comfort myself using that particular image. I never stop believing that that's how things would be if I actually continuously work at it. no matter how improbable or seemingly ridiculous or far-fetched the image might seem to other people, it just sticks in my mind as something that will and should happen, given the right amount of effort and Divine Will. haha.

call it stupid, call it unrealistic, but I actually like this about myself. I guess it's my way of coping with things. leave things behind and hope for the brightest future possible.

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moving on. today was quite hilarious. went to the library with polly after school today. we went to the toilet before going in, and there was this PW PI draft on the metal shelf thing (which evidently has no purpose -.-) and polly picked it up.

me: "internationalization of SMEs... oh it's PW! the PI. wah." -looks through-
polly: "omgoodness I don't even remember anything about PI lah."
me: "eh it's the PI eh, I can't believe the person just left it behind like this. in the toilet, of all places!"
polly: "yea! very careless eh!"
me: "it's damn STUPID to just leave it behind like this!"
polly: "yea, I wonder whose it is..."
me: ............ "uhoh." -whispers- "maybe it's the girl inside the toilet's one, then she just put it there for the time being."

and then we both hightailed it out of the toilet hahahahaha. damn funny. I practically shouted that the person who left it behind must be damn stupid. lol.... :P

andand!

1. don't blame me for even looking through it, it's public property once you leave it in a public place.
2. admit it, you don't remember anything about the PI either. ^^
3. ...must have been a SHITTY pi, cos the person left it in the toilet = FULL OF SHIT :D

WHAHAHAHAHAHA

okay that wasn't funny.







that was HILARIOUS! :D

haha okay well in other news. (well old news lah actually. wtvs)

the whole reason why I started talking about optimism in the first place is because I got some of my results back ready, and the very fact that I'm talking about optimism shows something about the state of my grades huh.

yea well they're not THAT bad... I'm serious. actually considering how I did for promos last year, it's an improvement. especially for math.

(IT DAMN WELL BETTER BE AN IMPROVEMENT FOR MATH, I SACRIFICED MY SEAHIST MARKS FOR MATH OKAY DAMN BLARDY ARSEHOLE, STILL NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR A B LAH WALAO)

yes okay. let's all be civilized, aye.

kanninacheebyegannasailaosaipangsai

still have gp and lit to go. gp should be fine, and lit.... shouldn't be that bad. hopefully.

moving on!

on the way home I think I fell in love. hahaha. I think I saw the most handsome guy I've ever seen in my entire life. although he was a bit faggot-y, considering the fact that he was wearing tapered pants, had the hood on his hoodie up, and had a PINK WALKMAN PHONE (though I suppose I should be glad it's not a pink motorola razr, at least hahaha :x)

IRREGARDLESS (I love this non-word), he was still damn hot. I haven't openly gawked at a guy in a long time. since sec2 I think. I was dying because he went to stand directly in front of me in the LRT, and um my eyelevel was at a place where it shouldn't be

HAHAHA no lah I'm kidding I didn't look there, I just looked all over the place. up, a lot of the time, to gawk at him some more.

I am such a nerd.

e = mc2

oh yes, and I do so HATE jellyfish boys. (this particular part is just to link the whole post, which I know it rather incoherent, to the title). I was watching an indo drama for a while after tuition, and the leading man in the drama is SUCH A SISSY.

if someone forces you to get married, and you don't want to get married, not to the person in question, not even at that particular time in your life, THEN PUT YOUR MANLY FOOT DOWN AND SAY NO LAH FOR GOD'S SAKE?!

okay why am I getting so excited about this. anyway. I hate guys like that. no backbone. spineless = jellyfish --> JELLYFISH BOY.

bloop bloop.

okay back to ECAWNSSSS wah this post quite long ah haha bye.