50 get back on those feet!

today was so full of shit.

tonight is gonna be full of shit too. I have tuition, like now, basically until 10pm. which means I'm going to die. because I haven't done lit, no sirree not at all, and I'm still quite lost about the stupid poems.

I was set to cry already in the morning today, and I wasn't even paying attention to a single word that the lecturer was saying. I really didn't hear a single word. I was beginning to tear. but then it would have been humiliating to cry in the middle of nowhere, so I ducked away to the toilet and basically shut everything out.

which really isn't very good. I can't think straight now. ):

but thanks you guys. everyone who tried to cheer me up, it really means alot! though it didn't do much, because i'm just really stubborn like that, but really I appreciate it loads.. :)

ct2 is gonna be ten times harder, and I'm wayyy scared. honestly, there hasn't been a point in my life before this where I wish I was that much smarter.

it just isn't fair that some people put in effort, and don't get the results. but then other people don't put in as much effort and still get better results. that sucks.

but if you look at it in perspective, it just means you've got to change the way you study. cos there's no way in hell you could change the way God's made you.

GO ME.

...think I really need to do some serious thinking about this whole thing. another day. I'm really damn tired now. omgosh haha I just fell asleep on my laptop! how cool am I.

...not cool at all. ugh. WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUTTT T_T that's it, goodnight suckers