43 this is me, being desperate :)

(disclaimer: hey don't judge. I'm really not this desperate

today was such a Shit Day. but I'm not gonna complain about here, because you won't want to listen (even though I know you all harbour secret desires to listen to every single aspect of my horribly interesting life :P) and because

THERE'S NO POINT MOPING OVER SPILT MILK. I refuse to depress myself any further than I already have.

today I spent an hour at starbucks before going home for tuition, just sitting there pretending not to be secretly admiring the Friendly Cute Starbucks Barista. who remains anonymous. hey, he looked extra delicious today. but not as delicious as my CARAMEL FRAPPE :)

anyhow, blah blah he's so damn nice, and so damn hot. I wish I had the nerve to say something else to him besides "can I have a caramel frappe please?" but no, I don't have the courage to do that.

I sat there stoning pretending to be vaguely interested in Seventeen magazine. which is realllllly not something that I do. if you know me well enough, you'd know I don't care much for glossy mags and looking up Hot New Summer Looks and what not, haha.

well at least he's damn friendly. and so oblivious to my admiration. he just throws smiles at me when he looks up from the blender or something, and sees me staring like I've never seen a guy before. so damn friendly. I feel like ruffling his hair! hahaha okay maybe not, don't think any guy likes that right... -.-

okay enough about that guy. :)

today in the school canteen, a very weird thing happened. some j1 did something very weird to me.

I was looking for a seat along with my friends, during the lunch block before seahist tutorial, and we picked a bench which was empty except for this j1 guy and his friend. and then the j1 guy (Mr. Weird) went "this one ah?" he was practically screaming into his friend's ear, and I was thinking "haiyah, why j1s so noisyyyy."

and then I noticed Mr. Weird pointing, like with his index finger, almost like I did something wrong to offend him, straight at me. I thought I was being delusional, and I was about to turn to see if he was talking to anyone behind me, but there wasn't anyone who was even paying attention to him. then he turned away from his friend and gave me this Look. the I'm Observing You look.

I think I must've looked really surprised, cuz he looked quite amused.

actually come to think of it right, a lot of Weird Freaky Happenings have been happening to me. spice up my life ah?? hahaha yeah right. more like make my thoughts a tangly mess....

I realize that I've ended up telling you guys about my life anyways. -.- so yea, this is about as interesting as it gets. which means it's pretty much horridly boring.

I should stop trying to smooth out my thoughts now, and go mess them up again by doing loci.

LOUSY LOCI LAOSAI PANGSAI

haha I don't know why I said that. o.o

bye guys.

42 freeeeeeeeeee

I'd forgotten the freedom that comes with not having to be tied down.

with school, with matters of the heart... :)

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41 stimulate the economy!

read this somewhere... damn nice. think it's damn sweet. :)


You don’t make me go weak in the knees. My heart doesn’t skip a beat when I see you. I don’t freeze up when I talk to you. You don’t make me marvel at you by just standing there, I don’t find you perfect no matter what you do. I still think you’re a jackass sometimes, because you do whatever the heck you want..

But I feel so warm inside when I see you, there’s no tingly sensation, just warmth, like my soul is happy to see you and it’s squealing with joy. I take time to think, really think, what to say before I say anything to you, because it matters to me what you think of it. I catch a glimpse of you in the most unexpected of times.. and I secretly think that you’re at you’re best when you’re oblivious, you look like a million bucks if you’d just believe. I never thought you were perfect and I never will think you are perfect, because I know your flaws. It matters less to me, though.

As far as it gets, you’re the best I ever had.

pretty darn good, huh. it's just so honest, and no-frills, just straight up raw sincerity. I love it man.

I went shopping yesterday! with polly and kris and vanessa. spent almost 6 hours at orchard shoppinggggg :) I survived! surprisingly, haha. well somehow, and maybe it has something to do with watching shopaholic lol, I didn't feel so daunted by the idea of spending so much time doing nothing but shopping hahaha. but it was quite tiring towards the end, I mean after walking all around far east....it was literally shop till you drop. haha.

well at least it was productive! i bought two cardigans, two tshirts, and two hairbands. for fifty bucks in total. far east is the best. :)

and I need more tshirts! lol I love the ones i already bought :P and I also need new flats. but I think I'm gonna replace that with vans shoes. :) my converse ones are still wearable but they're falling apart, and the vans shoes are soooo prettttttyyyy. they're only 40 bucks after discount! how cool is that!

I want a necklace too, those big long hanging ones. not blingbling -.- one which either has a heart or a star on it.

I should go shopping with my cousin soon. :) yay life is good.

...whoa wtf did I just spend all that time talking about shopping?! >.<

okay here's a fun fact for you:

I AM MEGA FREAKED OUT!

because 1. I haven't gone to starbucks in two weeks, no caramel frappe in two weeks and no Friendly Cute Starbucks guy to flirt with (haha just kidding. I don't even say anything to him, he's just the Friendly Cute Starbucks Guy. I don't even know his name, think I'ma let it stay that way, so he'll forever be anonymous to me.)

2. I get very freaked out when people who aren't even my friends observe me for extended periods of time, without any particular reason. I don't know why, I feel like a piece of wood when it happens, I mean haven't you GOT better things to stare at??! oh look, a hot girl wearing short shorts and a tight tank top's walking past, STARE AT HER WHY DON'T YOU, just quit giving me goosebumpssss. T_T

okay I'm gonna get more tshirts today and I'm gonna go starbucks as well. wah I damn rich ah. lol.

I LOVE FREE SATURDAYS! :D

40- what a day!

CTS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!!! :D :D :D :D :D

wahaha yeah baby YEAH! finallyyyyy.. after so long ;) hahaha. less than satisfactory outcome, but it's over nonetheless, that means I don't have to worry about anything for the next three days YAY LONG WEEKENDS.

aside from math not going as well as I'd hoped it'd go... and messing up lit, the rest of the day was pretty darn awesome. :)

learnt something about myself today, because a close friend told me something about myself that I hadn't realized. never even thought of it before, and she said it quite suddenly. I was lost for a while, but I really appreciate the sincerity of it all. not as if I liked what she had to say, but well it was the truth and most of the time truth is never fun. haha.

and then went to watch

wait for it, wait for it.............................








CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC!

ain't kidding, man I was so dreading that movie because it seemed frivolous. like HORRIBLE, and I don't even like shopping. haha. -.-

but guess what. GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT.






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I CRIED. I CRIED DURING A CHICK FLICK. I FREAKING CRIED?! I HAVEN'T CRIED IN ANY MOVIE SINCE.... since that horrible movie about monsters that was supposed to be a class outing last year :P oh yeah, it was called The Mist.

anyway I was really crying okay! not hysterically, just streams of silent tears. HAHAHA. WHAT A JOKE. I CAN'T BELIEVE I CRIED!! xP

hey I feel her plight, okay, I know what it feels like to feel that lousy. it was so damn touching ):

hee alright with the touchyfeely. I'm such a schizophrenic, okay. -.-

that was the MOST I've ever cried in a movie. hahaha. I felt one tear speeding down my cheek and I was like "oh DAMN, I CAN'T CRY DURING SHOPAHOLIC, IT'S SHOPAHOLIC!?" and I tried to stop and then someone said something touching again and the dam burst hahahahaha

damn dam.

okay so yes, even if you're prejudiced against shopaholic, trust me it's not all a chickflick movie. though truth be told it never ceases to amaze me how newyorkers can go so crazy over little small things like boots or handbags. I know I don't have a clue about how to tell the pretty things from the ugly things, they kinda just look the same to me. but I still don't understand the craze about clothes. haha.

but if you look past the obvious frivolity, there's actually real meaning in the movie, which is the touching part!

:)

I love how it all works out in the end.

OH AND HUGH DANCY IS DAMN HOT. check him out. his eyes are so frigging blue and I love his accent. he's like hugh grant, but less slimy-looking and more clean-shaven and slimmer. awesome possum!

and now, I am very tired. I haven't been sleeping well because of stupid effing cts. so goodbye. :)

free trade increases world peace.

I wonder how that would look on my essay.

#39 FRICKIN STRICKEN

SHOOT. I'll be completely honest with you all. I lost my drive to study. I don't know, I haven't been studying much over the hols and I know that's bad, that's reallly bad, that's HORRIBLE AND I'M A SICK BASTARD but.

I don't wanna jump on the bandwagon and mug my fricking ass off, I don't want to be a dog. and yet somehow there is something vaguely appealing about sitting down for 5 hours straight and at the end of it throwing my pen down and going "WOW I FINISHED MUGGING ____(insert subject name)____, AND BOY DOES MY NECK FEEL SORE."

plus there's that whole thing about getting into university, you know.

... I don't really know what I'm talking about. I should go jump off a building, you wanna help? yea, I knew you would.

in other news.

OH MY GOD. I CAN'T BELIEVE MYSELF I BLUSHED LIKE A FRICKING C*** WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME WHY AM I SO GROSS!?!?! I melted like a popsiscle under the hot sun ): and now, I am probably never going to say anything at all to him ever again, and I think it's mutual T_T

and also...

I just had CRUNCH ice cream. and a banana. and I like ice cream and I should stop talking.

...

...

...

LOITER MUCH?!

nah, I just wanted to say that, I don't know what I'm talking about at all, I'm going crazy, no wait, I already AM crazy and

good luck for cts. yay. :)

#38 meh.

john maynard keynes was gay. :)

what a happy thought. his boyfriend was a linguistic philosopher. there was a movie made about them. and there was a gay sex scene. :)

shit, I'm having difficulty focusing. NO IT DOESN'T HAVE TO DO WITH KEYNES BEING GAY. I had a really very disturbing dream last night and I cannot stop thinking of it. and it doesn't have to do with gay sex, either. although that IS very disturbing.

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okay.

you know that picture of keynes in the ihist notes? it really is disturbing.

#37 you're not a man, you're just a mannequin

it's funny how certain people's facial expressions at certain points in time are imprinted into your memory, like someone had taken one of those hot rods and burnt the image into your mind... and for a while it just says there like a fresh, searingly painful burn, and you can't shake the image off your mind no matter how hard you tried... why is that?

today I saw a guy I know, and when we locked eyes his facial expression changed completely, he straightened up almost immediately and then he went kinda stony but at the same time somehow kinda worried and then when he walked past me he said something to me that hurt me quite a bit. he didn't even say hello, or goodbye.

and I can still remember the exact expression on his face! I wish I didn't remember it at all, because I'm wondering why he's so hostile all of a sudden and I feel guilty without even knowing exactly what I did that was so wrong! you know how much that sucks. I wish I had the ability to put it aside and just dismiss the thought, but like it or not, he is my friend. I care about every single one of my friends, and when someone says something like that to you, in a tone that's dripping with sneering contempt, and you don't know why, I know it sounds silly for me to care so much but I doooooooo

why am I ranting like a fricking irritating whiny little kid. here. oh god, shut up santri get back to your work dammit. :x

#36 the random one

i love katy perry. have I mentioned that before? she's awesome. freaking awesome. aside from the fact that she shows off various parts of her body too much, I mean I bet she gave people boners last time... abit disgusting though. BUT anyways, she's still awesome, I love the music she makes. super catchy. and I can totally get the lyrics.

okay in other news.. I'm getting very crazy. very very very crazy. more than I ever was last year. I love it though. it's fun. abit freaky, but very fun :) and I think if I don't let this craziness get out of me I will tear my hair out soon, school is just too stressful and I hate mugging and I want to drop out of school and become a taitai. easier. -.-

then again, committing suicide would be a viable option as well... just kidding. or am I?

Your Personality Is Like Alcohol

You're the life of the party, a total flirt, and probably a pretty big jokester. Sometimes your behavior gets you in trouble, but you still remain socially acceptable. You're a pretty bad driver, and you're dancing could also use a little work! At your best: You are uninhibited, funny, and relaxed. What people like about being around you: You're friendly, welcoming, and easy to talk to. What people dislike about being around you: You're a little sloppy and careless. How addicted people get to you: A fair amount, though they tend to deny it.

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

that's nice. :P I didn't know alcohol is a drug, did you? I thought alcohol was just.... alcohol -.-

#35 I'M SO EFFING HUNGRYYY.

disclaimer: do not judge. :)

I don't know why i bother to keep a facebook account sometimes. a lot of the time, actually. let's see.

1. it's nice to stalk people on facebook, without them knowing that I'm stalking them
2. hmmmmm.
3. facebook apps are fun?
4. nice to keep track of friends on facebook...the ones I don't normally see.
5. most importantly, nice to keep track of ENEMIES on facebook... the ones I see all the time, and the ones I never see... you know what they say, keep your friends close and your enemies closer >: D

yeah well I'm only joking about the last one. I don't think I have enemies in the first place... haha. cos I don't usually piss people off. I'm a good girl -halo- :) (hehehehehehe) and if you haven't noticed, I don't usually indulge in fb apps, heh. can't be bothered.

I mean if I wanted to um let's say throw a sheep at someone, why would I do it online? why not just do it IN REAL LIFE. ....piss me off and I'll give you a roundhouse kick.. no, not on SuperPoke. in school, maybe. talk about keeping it real....

I really can't think of any more reasons that don't sound in the least bit stalkerish. it's kind of pointless then, my keeping a fb acc. ha. still, stalking people is good sport. lol.

actually by stalk, I mean ogle at their pictures. so technically the only reason why I keep a facebook acc is to ogle at people's pictures secretly. that is sad. that is very very sad.

anyway I think it's stupid the way some people you don't even know add you on facebook. I mean it's probably okay if you know the person by face (but not necessarily by name) and you add him/her on facebook, but then what about random people whom you have no idea who they are, adding you. haha.

I'm just like, 'who areeeeee youuuuu. O.o' -squints suspiciously- 'urgh. okay I give up. approve lahhh whatever lah! at least that's one more facebook friend, oh gosh I'm so popular :D' hahahahahaha x) kidding about the 'at least' part. haha. :P

yes well. moving on!

to address the title of this post, I AM ravenousssssssssssss x( I've been ravenous a lot lately. seems as though my appetite has grown exponentially. and it's not like I'm skipping meals all the time or whatever, I think I'm snacking more than ever now. and I'm supposed to retake my napfa after cts. this can't be healthy. ):

in fact, I'm eating chicken rice right now, while I'm typing this post. I had my lunch, two plates of briyani rice (don't ask me why my house suddenly has so much rice O.o) TWO! TWO!! and I still plan to have dinner later. hahaha. well when school reopens I will have morphed into a miniature hippopotamus. nice.

that aside, I CAN'T WAIT FOR BEN&JERRY'S FREE CONE DAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

I remember last year's free cone day! bunch of us went to great world city thinking the ben&jerry's there wouldn't be so packed, considering the relative ulu-ness of the place... but the line stretched down the entire corridor, so there wasn't much point to that 'evasive action'... but we still lined up TWICE! because we are happy true-blue kiasu singaporeans like that..

and then we lepak-ed at the ground floor, chasing away some indian couple who were sitting on the bench and we played truth-or-dare, and it was so scandalous. I remember chan wenqiang saying very explicit things. and I remember thinking, "wow, this guy only looks like a good boy." HAHAHA ;D just kidding, dude :) but I was shocked at your un-innocence. :P

and how we took the shuttle bus because we didn't know what bus to take to get to orchard mrt, and we ended up in chinatown and then RIGHT BACK where we started, at the freaking bus stand outside great world city. bwahahaha.

good times :)

tmr going to eat coin prata at the best prata shop in singapore! as claimed by several newspapers. it's the prata shop at thompson, THE ONE WITH THE DELICIOUS AWESOME GOBSMACKING COIN PRATA(s?). I WILL EAT TEN MILLION OF THOSE, REALLY.

okay, I will stop being a glutton. no, I will try and stop being a glutton. ADIOS.

#34 XXX D

yahoo! aloha :) yay I'm blogging again. school is such hell, I'm so glad I've got my own little place to vent out all my frustrations.. regardless of how few people read it. wahaha :P

I'm so freaking brain dead, I refuse to study okay. I've been talking crap the whole day, classmates would probably second that... I've done so much math I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore..

um see, that sentence didn't even make sense. -.-

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LIFE BEEN SO DAMN TOUGH.... SO MUCH MUGGING, SO MANY MEMORIES TO SQUASH IN, SO MANY DARN PEOPLE TO PAY ATTENTION TO... most importantly, so much growing up to do, so little time

I wish I lived in an alternate dimension. just what would have happened to me if I went to a secondary school I actually liked....

you know what, I think I need to take stock of what's been happening in my life. things have been happening so fast, despite the seemingly snail-like pace of lessons... I don't quite know how the first term of school has managed to pass me by just like that. can't believe FIRST TERM IS UP ALAMAKKKKKKK

okay cool down, santri. sheesh.

well on the academic front, much remains to be done... blablabla more mugging, more effort. I don't really wanna go into this. I know what I need to do and that's enough.

on the social front... well I haven't really been a good friend but since when have I ever been a good friend? hahaha. I think I just take my friends for granted sometimes... no wonder I don't have a specific clique to hang out with all the time... lol no lah, I'm kidding. I mean about the last part of the last sentence. I just need more space this year, to think things out... I mean I kinda feel like if I had a clique, I have to tell everything that happens in my life to the people in my clique all the time, and I don't wanna do that. I need space. hah. :) no offence guys. :) arm's length... seems like it's working fine this yearr :) don't suppose I'm gonna change anytime soon.

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HAHA funny convo. STUPID, but FUNNY all the same xD

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

sorry

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

tengah high

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

ARGH!!!

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

CRUSH!

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

on 98.7!

♥ SANTRIANI says:

orhhh david archie eh

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

yea

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

:D

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

I'm in love with him

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

YAY!

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

I'm GAY!!!

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

XD

♥ SANTRIANI says:

ohmygosh

♥ SANTRIANI says:

I KNEW IT

♥ SANTRIANI says:

I KNEW YOU WERE GAY

♥ SANTRIANI says:

it's alright to be different

♥ SANTRIANI says:

;)

♥ SANTRIANI says:

HAHAHA

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

DIAOOO!!!!

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

I'm gay = happy

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

WAH LAO!

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

SICK AH YOU!

because I can't sleep till your next to me ----------------------------------- IT'S A SONG! IT'S CALLED INSOMNIA! SICKOS!!!! says:

SICKOOOO!!!!!

♥ SANTRIANI says:

HAHAHAHAHAHA

♥ SANTRIANI says:

OHMAN. how was I supposed to know!

♥ SANTRIANI says:

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lol. and the person of questionable sexuality here is... none other than HANIFFF.

don't you think I'm right, people say HAPPY when they mean HAPPY, they don't say GAY when they mean HAPPY. RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT!!

okay no need to get so excited, why am I so excited... why am I so incoherent? why is the sky so blue? why is the grass so green?

WHY MUST I GO TO SCHOOL.
WHY MUST I GROW UP.

WHY

Z

X?

XXX

XXXOOO

XOXO

X RATED

eX Rate (EXCHANGE RATE ECAWNSSSS WAHOOO)

EX (THE SINGLE MOST HATED LETTER OF THE ALPHABET)

AXE

STOP IT LAH AIYO

GOOD NIGHT. NO ACTUALLY I DON'T WANT TO SLEEP. I'M GONNA STAY UP TALKING CRAP. ADIOS.

#33 the one with the diabetic crap :)

when I find the most beautiful person on earth, he'll be one of a kind. he won't be awesomely freaking beautiful on the outside, he'll be the most beautiful person on earth, on the inside. he wouldn't need to be that knight in shining armour, because I'm not a damsel in distress. nothing he could ever say would make me love him less. I'd hold my ground right there beside him and I wouldn't budge even if the tide turned against us. I wouldn't give him up if you told me you'd pay me sixty million bucks for every day we spent apart, because nothing would be the same, nothing anyone could ever give me would even come within the same vicinity as his presence in my life.

:)

all it takes is conviction, faith, and trust in God. He created someone out there for me and I'm not gonna waste my time on anybody else other than him... somewhere out there is my mister fantastic :) and then the rest is up to Him :)

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#32 the one with the baby

I amaze myself sometimes. amaze, or disgust, depending on how you look at it. it's a bit of both, you'll see what I'm talking about.

I almost never freeze up when I talk to guys, even the ones that I think are cute, even the ones I "like" more than as a friend at that point in time! but just this ONE guy talks to me and I can't even look at his face without talking coherently. I had a conversation with him today, well a "conversation" and I was sooooo freaking idiotic, only said two sentences throughout the whole thing, along with a forced smile when I looked at him

THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH HIM, HE JUST HAS THIS FRUSTRATING EFFECT ON ME. I don't know what it is he does, but he DOES, and it semi-paralyzes me which really freaks me outtttttttttttttttttttt X:

and the best part is that I should have said more!!! I wanted to talk to him cos haven't seen him for so long, but I just didn't know what to say, at that point in time. OHMYGOD DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN. ARE YOU DISGUSTED NOW, BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL AM D:

no, I do not have a serious crush on him. like I said, and I'll say it again, for the umpteenth time, I really don't harbour any massive crushes/concrete feelings for anyone right now... I just have more eye candies (?) than I can count on my fingers...

haiyohhh... I'm not used to this man... I don't remember ever being so paralysed just by normal human interaction with a member of the opposite sex. scares me to death! I don't like to be reduced to mush so much so that I can't even form coherent sentences AIYAHHHHH that's so damn pathetic D:

well moving on.

first full day with leg injury today! woo my legs are getting quite the workout. limping is hard work, I realize.... resting most of your weight on the leg that isn't so injured kinda hurts after a while.. just kinda. -.-

bathing is such a freaking chore now. I have to hoist my legs over the side of the bathtub to make sure water doesn't get on the stupid abrasions... which is really an absurd position to be in, YOU try it! stretching like mad just to turn the stupid shower on. -.-

haha maybe that was too much information. ohwell.

another thing I realize... I'm either really stubborn or fiercely independent. again, depending on how you look at it. I think it's more really stubborn. because being really stubborn implies an independence that reeks of stupidity.

stubborn, because despite the availability of the lift to get from the 7th floor to the 1st, I insisted on going down the stairs. -.- and then after that, on my way home, despite being able to just take the bloody bus home so I wouldn't have to walk that much, I chose to take the mrt home and then still walked around at lot 1 before going home, because I didn't want to go home yet.

but there's a silver lining in every cloud right... well at least stubbornnness means that I don't want to have help from other people. though I know I whine a lot about the pain. I'd rather whine than get help. I ain't no baby... LEAST OF ALL __________'S BABY HUH (you'd probably know if you attended the final tutorial of today)

so yes. that pretty much makes me a blockhead. pretty irrational, hahaha.

alright, enough exhibitionism, back to econs.

fuck, I hurt myself something baddd. :x fell down on the track today while I was doing my shuttle run... face-first. :/ got an abrasion on each knee. and my thigh muscle feels like there's this weird unseen force trying to pull my muscle out from under my skin and squeezing it like mad. and no matter WHAT I DO IT HURTS LIKE MAD, LIKE FUCKING MAD D:

I can't find a single position to sit/stand in which takes away the pain, okay. bathing is SUCH a chore now, I have to make sure no water gets on my knees cos it will burn like hell and I'm scared of that :s

I know I'm whining like a baby, but it really hurtsssssssssss I really felt like crying just now. ): can't run twopointfour at this rate! and pulled muscles alwayssss hurt really bad in the mornings rightt.... SHIT. ): ): ):

anyway. the good news is that! I got a decent score for all five items! and I got my A for shuttle run! :D despite having to run with screwed up knees and a pulled muscle. woo :D maybe I should have just waited, that's probably the reason why my muscle hurts like mad now...

HAIYAH. if only I could do the same for twopointfour...... I mean, the getting a decent score part, not the falling part -.-

work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt before, and danceeeeee like nobody's watching!

I might've killed to make you see the look on your face today hahaha :) if I didn't know better I'd think it was cute, too bad it's you I'm talking about here... yeahhhh I'm untouchable and you know it :) hahaha :)

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stoked

I WANNA WATCH WATCHMEN

WHY MUST CTS BE DRAWING NEAR?

WHY MUST THERE BE CTS???

WHY DO I NEED TO STUDYYYYYY.

WATCHMEN'S DAMN BLOODY COOL.

okay you get the point. before I go, just something I completely love. can't believe this guy.... RIDICULOUS OR WHAT???!!!!



back to seahist... for nowwwww. or maybe forever. -.-

SIALAH. ):