#32 the one with the baby

I amaze myself sometimes. amaze, or disgust, depending on how you look at it. it's a bit of both, you'll see what I'm talking about.

I almost never freeze up when I talk to guys, even the ones that I think are cute, even the ones I "like" more than as a friend at that point in time! but just this ONE guy talks to me and I can't even look at his face without talking coherently. I had a conversation with him today, well a "conversation" and I was sooooo freaking idiotic, only said two sentences throughout the whole thing, along with a forced smile when I looked at him

THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH HIM, HE JUST HAS THIS FRUSTRATING EFFECT ON ME. I don't know what it is he does, but he DOES, and it semi-paralyzes me which really freaks me outtttttttttttttttttttt X:

and the best part is that I should have said more!!! I wanted to talk to him cos haven't seen him for so long, but I just didn't know what to say, at that point in time. OHMYGOD DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN. ARE YOU DISGUSTED NOW, BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL AM D:

no, I do not have a serious crush on him. like I said, and I'll say it again, for the umpteenth time, I really don't harbour any massive crushes/concrete feelings for anyone right now... I just have more eye candies (?) than I can count on my fingers...

haiyohhh... I'm not used to this man... I don't remember ever being so paralysed just by normal human interaction with a member of the opposite sex. scares me to death! I don't like to be reduced to mush so much so that I can't even form coherent sentences AIYAHHHHH that's so damn pathetic D:

well moving on.

first full day with leg injury today! woo my legs are getting quite the workout. limping is hard work, I realize.... resting most of your weight on the leg that isn't so injured kinda hurts after a while.. just kinda. -.-

bathing is such a freaking chore now. I have to hoist my legs over the side of the bathtub to make sure water doesn't get on the stupid abrasions... which is really an absurd position to be in, YOU try it! stretching like mad just to turn the stupid shower on. -.-

haha maybe that was too much information. ohwell.

another thing I realize... I'm either really stubborn or fiercely independent. again, depending on how you look at it. I think it's more really stubborn. because being really stubborn implies an independence that reeks of stupidity.

stubborn, because despite the availability of the lift to get from the 7th floor to the 1st, I insisted on going down the stairs. -.- and then after that, on my way home, despite being able to just take the bloody bus home so I wouldn't have to walk that much, I chose to take the mrt home and then still walked around at lot 1 before going home, because I didn't want to go home yet.

but there's a silver lining in every cloud right... well at least stubbornnness means that I don't want to have help from other people. though I know I whine a lot about the pain. I'd rather whine than get help. I ain't no baby... LEAST OF ALL __________'S BABY HUH (you'd probably know if you attended the final tutorial of today)

so yes. that pretty much makes me a blockhead. pretty irrational, hahaha.

alright, enough exhibitionism, back to econs.