i hope you burn in hell, you fucking cunt. I'm not bothering to censor this post because I want the whole world to know how fucking much I fucking hate you. my face is hot and I can't see properly because my glasses are smeared with tears, I can hear your voice and I can't believe I even wanted to protect you. why should I have done anything for somebody who doesn't appreciate it?

you're happy now that you've broken me aren't you? huh you fucking asshole. I don't give a damn what you say, I'm still gonna go ahead and do it. don't think you can scare me away just because you said no, I'm gonna do what I want because I'm 18 and I fucking can, and you can't stop me no matter what you fucking say. fuckhead.

you can never get it past your fucking skull that I've changed in so many ways just for you. I'm a better sister now, I'm a better student, I clean up after myself and I try to be the person that you want me to be. but you never say anything about it you moron. am I nothing to you? does everything I do not matter to you? you told me to change, and I did, against my own will even, because I wanted to get you to see that I could rise to the occassion, but NOTHING EVER WORKS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

it hurts you know. why is nothing I do ever good enough. when I change and when I try to tell you I have changed, to make you see that I can be that person you want me to be, at least little by little if not overnight, you say it's a given. that I have to act that way, or god knows what you'll do to me.

what is wrong with you? I'm not a bad person. I don't have to make myself feel worthless and insufficient all the time simply because you think I'm that way. I am what I am, if you didn't like it I could have changed it for you, but now it all seems like nailing jelly to the wall.