tough titty

(disclaimer: before you jump back in horror at the vulgarity of the title, I'd like to say that it's an expression. contrary to popular belief, I am not prone to saying obscene random things about tits whenever I feel like it. :) )

prepare yourself for an extremely long post! haha I have lots of things to say, I was sitting at the raja block alone today after remedial and I got the chance to think about a few things. haha. here goes.

people would rather believe in something they want to be true, than admit that they've made a mistake in sizing up the situation, or in this case, sizing up the person..

what I mean to say is that, when you are inclined by your emotions to believe something, you just go ahead and believe it, and you subconsciously refuse to be objective about things even though you know you're being subjective.

let's say you encounter someone in your life, who seems to be the living embodiment of a lot of the qualities that you dislike in a person. emphasis on 'seems to'. I guess it's only human nature that you naturally take a disapproving stance against that person.. but it takes time for the real person to make himself known... if you get what I mean. you don't just KNOW what the person's real sentiments, beliefs, and values are overnight, it takes time what.

this particular person turns out not to be the kind of person you initally made him out to be. but because from the outset you've decided that you really don't like the person, you choose to distance yourself from the person cos you think you know what the person's all about. and even when the cold hard facts are staring you straight in the face, you set up a barrier between yourself and the truth because it's easier to fan your emotions and go along with your initial judgement, than to see that damn you've really made a mistake.

personally I feel that the only reason for this is naked pride. you really don't wanna know that you were letting your emotions dictate your perceptions. people would rather believe something their emotions tell them is the right thing to do, than choose to use their head and not heart to think things through. though they would rarely admit it...

I wish that were not so. that seems like an incredibly naive thing to say right now, but if I just temporarily drop the slight jadedness, it's true, I really wish people would be more objective when they're trying to decide what kind of person you are.

it's an injustice to the person you're prejudicing yourself against. and it's just plain stupid that you're doing that to yourself, I think it just highlights your simple-mindedness..

and I wanted to say something else, but I forgot, I'm getting too worked up... ):

well one more thing.... no matter how much you wish people wouldn't judge you, especially those who don't know you very well, it's inevitable. some people are gonna judge you and classify you as 'good kid' or 'bad kid' and sometimes it doesn't even matter what you do about it. that one thing that you did to make them judge you this way just defines who you are, to them at least. it is unfair and completely illogical, but like I said, I think it's just because they would rather believe something they think is true, than see what the truth really is.

yup... I think no one has any reason to be that afraid of people judging them, if they are it's because they're insecure about those particular flaws in their character. to me it doesn't matter that people want to put emphasis on those flaws, you just have to know that those flaws don't make you a completely bad person, just someone who's less than perfect. it's more important that you disregard their judgement and actively work towards improving yourself with regards to these flaws...

awright, I'ma stop here. this feels weird, I'm so not used to this, it kinda feels like I'm preaching -.- but still, it's good letting loose. I don't really like to keep my opinions to myself most of the time, haha so I guess I should do this more... just not too much. lol.

back to econs. my life sucks. (resounding cheer: JOIN THE CLUBBBB)

(oh yeah, this entire post was inspired by someone. but the post isn't really directed to that person. it's just my musings lah I guess...)