like a hard candy with a surprise center

ooh.. I shouldn't have come online, my headache's coming back with a vengeance. as if it isn't bad enough already that it made me sleep at the specs gal without bothering to move to some other conducive sleeping environment within the school compound.

well first things first.. happy valentine's day :) here's to all the happy couples out there and may yall keep the love alive forever and ever :) :)

now moving on. I watched benjamin button! it's not an awesome movie, but it's good cos it makes you think about stuff. it's very touching the way benjamin gets dementia when he 'ages towards childhood'.. and also when he dies as the newborn in daisy's arms.

of course brad pitt looks as roguishly handsome as ever, but I just think cate blanchett looks skeleton-like. O.o but she is pretty in this bony way.. don't know how that works.

that's done. now I have to be honest. last night I kinda couldn't go to sleep for about two whole hours because I was thinking about vday stuff, and I was quite depressed because I still haven't found someone special enough.. and more importantly, that no one considers me special enough in that way.

before you roll your eyes (x I had some alone time today before watching benjy button, and I realized that it's my own fault that nobody wants to think of me as being someone special, because erm every time someone does that I end up getting pissed off at that person at some point in time. haha. and it's for the simple reason that well erm it's irritating you know. -.-

maybe it's me, maybe it's their own fault, budden somehow or other the situation can only have two possible resolutions. the first involves me exercising some semblance of patience and empathy, but that almost never works out in any situation.. heh. >< so I end up losing it. and losing it quite badly. haha.

and the second is I just ignore the person because he's not annoying, neither is he someone that I would love to be associated with in that way. in other words, erm I don't care.

so then I have nobody to blame but myself for not having a blossoming love life right? aiyo. KENTAL TAIK BAKKWA SIAL. hahahaha (x

kay. now I must really go sleep. my eyelids are acting like magnets man, I swear they're so attracted to one another it's insane. good night.